sisterly love

"Mom, I can't wait till I am this old (holds up 4 fingers) so then I can hold Charlie in my arms" I felt sad to tell Johanna that he was going to get bigger just like her and possibly bigger than her...I think it is time for a new baby in the family....hmmmm

Auto-immune disease

I have been diagnosed with Vitiligo (a auto-immune disorder where my pigmentation is being attacked)...I am now a spotted leopard. When I came home with the new diagnosis I was in tears. My oh so sensitve girl asked me what was wrong and I told her. She gave me a hug and said "mom I love you even though you have spots" Charlie must of known that I was feeling sad cause he came to me as if I had been gone a whole day and hugged me soo tight. How could I be sad still with so much love coming my way!

PHOBIA

Okay I admit it! I created a super phobic daughter...let me explain. I am allergic to bees..hence my hatred towards them. So when I see them I scream and run (I will spare all the other details). I don't like anything that creeps or crawls..don't have an excuse for that. I grew up out in the country and one would think that I should be use to them but I never liked them, I guess that is why my brother and cousin Gary always tormented us with reptiles and bugs. I always gave them a great reaction. So my dear daughter has watched me react to bugs and bees. So now when we are outside playing she has mini panic attacks when a fly or bee flies by. Sometimes she gets so worked up she starts to cry! As of late she has wakes up in the middle of the night crying saying there is a bee in her room...ughhh! Charles of course tells me.."you did this to her"
Well yesterday we played outside in the puddles after the rain the night before. Johanna was down the sidewalk some, holding something and yelled to Charlie and I "come here, look what I found" Charlie and I went running to her all excited and to my horror she was holding a worm. I reacted without thinking and screamed (yuck, gross and other words). Johanna dropped the worm and started to scream too. I realized my mistake and told her it was okay that she hold the worm but not to come near me with it. So soon enough both my kids decided it was funny to chase me with the worm in hand...my brother and cousin Gary would be proud!!